A Moment's Peace from the May-hem of Motherhood
If you looked attentively into my wild eyes, and noticed the rakish angles of my hair these days, you might get some sort of clarity on what the moment I am living in is like. You would get no sense of the mindfulness I have been methodically trying to cultivate through the late winter and spring, nor would you have any way of knowing that not only did I cry when I saw the video for Karen Maezen Miller's new book, Hand Wash Cold, but I have also been deeply immersed in a neo-Buddhist text for several months.
Where is enlightenment?
Far from my house. And why is that, I ask, when I have been seeking it so diligently? And the answer comes on the late spring Texas breeze--something like the hot air from the Conair Ionic Shine hair dryer that is supposed to leave my tresses so smooth, with the cuticles lying flat, docile and shiny: because it's May.
May. May Poles. May Day, May flowers, the merry merry month of May. Rewind. Re-name: May-hem. I saw the fifth month referred to this way in a kirtsy promotion, and all I could think was, Yes, that explains it. Mayhem.
What happens when every activity a child has ever pursued, including picking its nose, needs to be celebrated with an end-of-season celebration? What happens when sixth graders need to be driven over the top with worry about exams? What happens when we cannot have summer before next year starts, we have to have flying up ceremonies and bond-with-your-buddy activities? And throw in swim team, camp forms, annual check ups, turn in your instrument or pay with your first-born, turn in every library book you've ever looked at, and don't forget to kick back and just enjoy these late spring days.
If I had a little leaguer at this point, I'd commit hari-kari.
I will not bore you with a laundry list of all the functions, celebrations, kick-offs and trainings I have attended in the last week. Each of them was a happy occasion, and each came with a roster of wonderful people--loved ones and dear acquaintances, as well as people I would like to know better. My days have been filled with roast beef and roses, fried chicken and cakes, and red, red wine.
What's not to like?
Mary Poppins said it best: enough is as good as a feast.
I am over-saturated with feasting and merriment. Give me Lent or give me death. I know why Patrick Henry said that now. It must have been May, right before the Declaration of Independence was signed. Back then, you had one big event in May, and it was July before the horses could get you and your steamer trunks up to Philadelphia for the next event. it was just like ketchup, slow good.
Slow. Good. Breathe. In. Out.
These are all beautiful moments, and I don't want to miss them as this fast-forwarding happens all around me. But do we need to pile so many of them into one month? Stop the madness. Stop the mayhem.
I need A Moment's Peace.
Thank goodness we published it before things got so crazy around here!
No matter how busy you may think you are, you must find time for reading, or surrender yourself to self-chosen ignorance.
~Confucius
Thanks to MommyLife.net for the great old woman in the shoe image. And I only have two!
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